Intentionally Adventurous

So I have been meaning to do this for a while. If you don't know me, I'm Candace, nice to meet you!  But what you should really know if you don't already know is that I am creative. I thrive the most when I can take time by myself to be creative. If it can fall into the category of "creative" I have probably considered, if not attempted to do it.  And blogging is no exception. My mind is constantly running and mulling over new ideas, and for about a year I have toyed with the idea of throwing caution fear of what people will think of me to the wind and actually firing one of these bad boys up.

So today is the day! Blog post numero uno, coming atcha! And I have to warn you, you will get no apologies for how rough this first post, or any after this one, may happen to be. Not because I am a particularly rude or pretentious person, but I have been letting self doubt win for far too long. Every time I even consider being creative, my fears pipe up, "but thats a chance to make mistakes! If you make a mistake and people see it, then obviously that will be the worst thing to ever happen! Do you want the worst thing to ever happen to happen?!"

Yah, that is pretty much the dialogue I hear upon making decisions on a daily basis. And yes, I am ignoring it right now. Mainly because when I don't do what I am made to do, I feel like one of the toys on the Island of Misfit Toys. You know, from the movie Rudolf the Red Nosed Reindeer? When I don't follow through with my ideas because of my fear, I am just a water gun that shoots jelly. I'm existing, but I'm not doing what I am made to do.

But I am done with that. And if you're wondering what you'll come across in this blog, I am not sure that I can officially promise anything in particular. All that I can say is that this will be a shameless journaling of the inner machinations of my mind. Note that word shameless, because it will be the heartbeat of everything I write on here. I have spent far too long letting the mere possibility of failure keep me from living, and this is the first step to unabashedly pursuing things that I think would be great fun and bring glory to God. Yay baby steps!

And there's another thing on the note of being shameless! I love God, and if you stick around for more of my ramblings, you will see more and more of that. God is my everything, and if I wrote nothing about Him or my relationship with Him, then I would not be being the real authentic Candace that I hope to portray through these scrawls (haha, Scrawltastic. Haha, get it? Yah, I tried.)

All in all, my goal is to give my readers and authentic look into my everyday including who I am and who I strive to be. I will try to never omit something because I am afraid of what others think. I might make you laugh. I probably won't ever make you cry; I hate to do so myself. But most of all I hope to light up your passion to live for something bigger than yourself.

That is the thought that has been rolling around in my head for the last few months. I would have to say that personally, I don't live a life that is as adventurous as I would wish. I make decisions that are primarily based on comfort, and that's just too sub par for me to continue on with anymore. So, I have come to the conclusion that the best way to really live, at least for beginners for myself, has to be by doing it one step (ranging from semi-courageous to ambitious) step at a time. Hurrah for semi-courage!

And thus begins the journey! Just so that we can get to know each other a little more, I am 21. I am married, and I work full time in an office job that I am one hundred percent thankful to have. I aspire to go back to college and get some sort of degree. In what, I still haven't pinpointed, but it will most certainly involve creativity in some way or another whether that turns out to be marketing, or photography, or even literature of some sort. I also hope to be able to travel all over the world (more of that adventurous living stuff) and who knows what else God has planned for me! All I know is that my journey will be intentionally more adventurous from now on.